if not now, when?

"We all have a million things vying for our attention. If you tell yourself that you don’t have enough time to clear out your junk, you might be delaying the well-being and relief you could experience by tackling it. If not now, when"? 

He was shouting at the peak of his voice and she was standing stunned and lost, what was going on she couldn’t understand and realized. Is he the same person she loved madly or it was some bad dream. Her only mistake was that she was outside with her friends for a beautiful day, they had a long drive singing and dancing in the car throughout and reached an adventure park for some fascinating rides and at last, reached the peak of adventure with bungee jumping. They had a roadside Maggi and tea. She was happy and shining and in the midst of this all fun she realized that they have reached a discotheque and it was time for loud music, a couple of vodka shots and lots of dance and Masti. It was a day she dreamed of throughout her life. For her, this was the way she wanted to live every day and feel break free. It was a day of fulfillment and contentment, it was a day of dreams mating life and with a broad smile and lost in the memories of a splendid day she opened the door of her house and Bang.. he just broke a glass on the floor and roared “where the hell have you been whole day and where’s your cell phone?”

Before she could understand anything and utter a word, she realized that this is moment to bring an end to all explanations she has been giving throughout her life in a poisonous relationship she was carrying on her shoulders as a repayment of the love she got from the person who seemed to be a Soulmate and partner for life in just beginning of her relationship and after that years after years life turned into a routine and obligation to pay.

She gave her heart, body, and soul to him, she opened the door of everything she could possess from money to emotions and dreams but some mistakes spoil and demolish everything you have achieved in past.

She could hear the increase in voice in an authoritative and arrogant manner to seek answers from her which she knew will never be understood and acknowledged, his harsh voice opened a spot in herself and she chose silence as her weapon.

She went to the door, opened it and had a deep disappointing staring into his eyes, she kept on standing there with a deep silence on her face and he had left with only one option that to leave her place and life forever. 

She found her weapon - A subtle silence and she used it well to regain what belonged to her. That was the moment she found that Silence is a friend to her as whenever she sees her alone and wants to be with herself, silence is the best place she has always been finding. Silence has always brought her the deepest of emotions and pleasure of the time whether she was with him in a relationship or also with her closest friends too.

Silence which at times wasn’t bearable to her, as it creates a vacuum for thought to come and emotions to outbursts uncontrollably, sufficient enough to make her uncomfortable almost always but this time she explored it to be the best friend for her as it opened the doors of wisdom, life, happiness and above all for starting a journey of self-contentment and finding a true love who is for her in all completeness, vastness, and openness.

Silence a word that has the power to change lives and penetrate through deepest of the cores is sadly widely ignored and grossly misunderstood.